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it’s so weird i still live here
it’s so weird i still know you
so weird i still love you
so weird i’m still alive.

every day i awake
and i’m truly amazed
i made it another day.

i’m too afraid to kill myself
and too afraid to really live.

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every day is the same
every night is the same
so weird i ended up here

every kiss is the same
every love is the same
so weird i ended up here
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so weird i still lie here
so weird i can’t talk
so weird i can’t move
so weird i’m still alive.

if i were to leave this place
tonight and not turn back
i’d end up where i started

i’m too afraid to kill myself
and too afraid to really love.

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every day is the same
every night is the same
so weird i ended up here

every drug is the same
every fight is the same
so weird i never change

every kiss is the same
every love is the same
so weird i ended up here

every day is the same
every night is the same
so weird i never change
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What inspired your song “So Weird”?

I wrote “So Weird” at a time where I really felt like life was not worth living. Every day felt exactly the same, just like the day before, wake up, go to work, sleep, wake up, go to work, sleep. Trapped by a job, droning monotony, in a city I hate, can’t find a way to make it go away, not sure why I can’t change anything. Too much of a wuss to even consider suicide. Strange that there is some comfort in sadness. And that I’m too afraid to make any big changes in my life that will get me out of this shit.